Kicker
Charmaine Chow Zhiwei wants her life to be colourful finally, 13!
Marymount Convent School
Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Secondary School

LOVES
&; bestfriends! <3
&; 6G'06
&; 1Grace '07
&; friends
&; family

HATES
!@#$; bastards
!@#$; bitches
!@#$; betrayers
!@#$; losers

WISH
maintain in Normal Acad stream
good grades for EOY
superman t-shirt
that slip on sneakers from Aldo
other coloured skinnies
a vest
that puma/adidas jacket
more allowance
to be happy forever
to be pimples free
to slim down
to rebond my hair (again)
1gb memory card
try to love Band

not to get moodswings
more privacy
more freedom
my handphone back
hair to be less dry
good grades
a jumper
everyone to buy class tee
the tee from Far East
more tees
more shoes/flats/flip flops
skinny jeans
jacket/sweater/cardigan

sidekicks
1Grace '07
Abigail
Clarissa
Chee Cheng
Cherie
Cheryl
Deanne
Elaine
Emily
Felix
Germaine
Jaselyn
Jeff
Jolyn
Kathleen
Katrina
Lee Chien
Lepinky
Lindi, cousin
Mingli
Pauline
Sabrina
Seewei
Seow Yi
Siew Woon
Sherylyn
Shirlene
Stacy
Welyn

messages

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skin by heroine
Friday, July 6, 2007
EMO SHITTTT


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young teck?













justin & seewei.



























edmund playing with the mic.













beauty & the beast during music.














she will be loved - maroon 5

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehowI want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhileAnd she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls


this love - maroon five, ride for you - danity kane, do you know (the ping pong song) - enrique iglesias, baby goodbye - friday hill, beautiful love - the afters, hellogoodbye - here in your arms, hellogoodbye - shimmy shimmy quarter turn, jack johnson - better together, justin timberlake - lovestoned/i think she knows, (P.S. i'm still not over you) - rihanna, for you i will - teddy geiger, love you so - natalie, goin crazy - natalie. haha, pardon me for typing so many songs name. but these songs are nice, go listen(:


these few days has really been fun & depressing at the same time, i don't know why. no matter how hard i try, the feeling still doesn't go away.
does making myself like someone else gonna help? i don't know but i've tried.
listening to other people's advices, yes, it does help abit. but i'm still unable to get you off my mind cause i think i've never ever loved someone as much as i loved you.
if not talking is suspposed to take away the feeling in my heart, i will very much like to do that. & of course, we're not talking now.
no no, it's not depressing that we're not talking cause that gives me a very good reason to avoid you. not like during the June holidays, we were good friends.
listening to brice's advice made me tear. listening to yu quan's advice made me think.
listening to stacy's advice made me tear & think - why am i so foolish? it makes me think - will i ever love a man like this in my life.
for now, the answer is no. but for the future, i don't know.
but what pains is watching you walk away from me. i thought we had it all & then, everything was just gone, in a flash.
i don't think i have anything to say to you - ever.


k, shall talk about my day actually. was pretty fun(:
seewei met me downstairs my block at 7 then we walked to school, slacked until assembly started.
they had all the crap stuffs like - SJAB day & prize giving. they gave prizes to netball, chior & something else =X
when they gave out for chior, stacy & i were like practically singing 'cause it's chior mah, supposed to sing! then went back to class.
changed in the toilet & had p.e! assembled in the concourse then had to go up to the dance room for hip hop dance lessons, the teacher's dancing was just fantastic!
then had maths, was slacking until siao, recess was boring too. i wasn't listening in music, was almost falling asleep.
had chinese, got punished with joshua & seewei. joshua got into deep shit with mdm wang ting & i was left off (:
had chapel, damn sian. tried to sleep but couldn't.


after school, decided to skip band, ugh. i should really stop doing that la!
then went to meet seewei then walked to j8 with him, stacy & shirlene. saw young teck on the way then he followed us to eat.
saw justin at macs, so he followed too. went to food court, had porridge(:
shuting & qianwen came too, haha. then seewei, young teck & justin went off.
heard that seewei & young teck fight :/ then seewei went off, justin went off, young teck came back & we talked.
we talked about studies, friends & relationships. because of support, i will change - to become a better person (that sounds impossible, but i will try!) yes, yes!
i will stop sleeping in class & start listening. we all went off then stacy &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp; i walked one round on 4th floor then went home.


"to love & to be loved"

Do you see how much I need you right now?